i don't have time to do things anymore and my brother thinks i'm ungrateful for not showing up for debate and my mother thinks that too they say it's all for my own good but i hate it I HATE IT

i don't have time to even get better at chinese or pass math or get good grades because I DON'T HAVE TIME TO GO TO TUITION OR STUDY BECAUSE DEBATE IS TAKING OVER MY LIFE i don't even have time to really go to that creative writing class which I've wanted for so long but I'm going anyway


i'm doing so badly at everything

everyone i need is so far away

i met someone i threw away today but i was too scared to talk to them so i didn't

i can't even do graphs

i need to drop something but I can't afford to

i don't want any of it anymore

please make it go away

i can't even cry out loud because they can hear it

i can't find my homework

it's all wrong

i don't grow up like you do



how do people be happy



there's a reason i'm always alone and nobody understands half the time i wish i were part of the crowd cliche i know


i'm failing

and everybody blames me for it