Okay this post is going to be a huge whinefest so prepare yerselves mateys!

Sooo debate people left like five hours ago and i feel really freaking lonely. I feel lonely alot :( i hate when you have people over for whatever reason and you're all happy and distracted and then they leave to go spend their time better elsewhere and probably a whole lot more productively and then there you are at home by yourself sitting on a now-messy bed with your stuffed toys strewn all over and a dozen empty apple juice cartons and everything just highlights your total lack of company especially when you really wish you could be with someone right fucking THEN.

and then all you're left to do is make crappy cookies and lurk on facebook in the hopes that someone anyone anything will talk to you to take your mind off the fact that you're feeling really fucking shitty and having a tv and a microwave in your room doesn't make you feel any better because goddamnit, they're just things and you'd have people over things any goddamn day. when the party's over friends go home and you aren't left with shit.

god i am so fucking needy srsly. will there ever be a person in this entire world who is as needy as me because i do not think so.

SOMEONE CURE ME OF THIS LIKE YESTERDAY PLEASE.


ugh i hate my life. i wish i were someone happy and carefree. jody totally comes to mind at this point.

UGH GOD. I need to get over myself.


the stupidest thing is bothering me and it won't go away.