Okay this post is going to be a huge whinefest so prepare yerselves mateys!

Sooo debate people left like five hours ago and i feel really freaking lonely. I feel lonely alot :( i hate when you have people over for whatever reason and you're all happy and distracted and then they leave to go spend their time better elsewhere and probably a whole lot more productively and then there you are at home by yourself sitting on a now-messy bed with your stuffed toys strewn all over and a dozen empty apple juice cartons and everything just highlights your total lack of company especially when you really wish you could be with someone right fucking THEN.

and then all you're left to do is make crappy cookies and lurk on facebook in the hopes that someone anyone anything will talk to you to take your mind off the fact that you're feeling really fucking shitty and having a tv and a microwave in your room doesn't make you feel any better because goddamnit, they're just things and you'd have people over things any goddamn day. when the party's over friends go home and you aren't left with shit.

god i am so fucking needy srsly. will there ever be a person in this entire world who is as needy as me because i do not think so.

SOMEONE CURE ME OF THIS LIKE YESTERDAY PLEASE.


ugh i hate my life. i wish i were someone happy and carefree. jody totally comes to mind at this point.

UGH GOD. I need to get over myself.


the stupidest thing is bothering me and it won't go away.

You know, I think Nadia is onto something. Taylor Swift has been raping my mind all day. She's an annoying whore most of the time, but her songs are so cute and romantic I have to forgive her whorishness. She should really wear less makeup though.

Ah well, Nadia has good taste.

Most of the time. >_> <_<

But really how adorable is this line "The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart" I MEAN AKJDFHKSJHFJSHF. Though I find the song Teardrops On My Guitar totally unbelievable. I mean she's so ffreakishly good-looking, as if ANY guy would want to be just friends with her, right? Unrealistic as shit.


Anyway. My mom is being fucking retarded. Today she was like "... My Chemical Romance... OMG WAIT I UNDERSTAND WHAT THE NAME MEANS!!! A ROMANCE WITH CHEMICALS! OMG YOU NEED ADULT SUPERVISION."

me: MOM. IT'S JUST A NAME AND IT'S AFTER A NOVEL, AND SECONDLY. Gerard has been clean and sober for three years and is an inspiration to us all based on how he struggled through though hard times.

mom: BULLSHIT! THAT'S LIKE SAYING KIEFER'S NOT AN ALCOHOLIC! YOU KNOW THESE ROCKSTARS...

and then she started singing this annoying as fuck little ditty that consisted of the words "My Chemical Romance" sung over and over.


Oh fuck. I just realised that my mcr meeting falls on 14th november. which is when i have to do some shitty graduation day meeting. Wish me luck trying to explain to her about that. Doctor's appointment? WHAT CAN I USE TO ESCAPE? I mean, what are the chances the timing won't conflict? Goddamnit.


I still haven't done lameass oral comm. I don't want to. Why'd I sign up for this lame shit in the first place. I'm such a shitbag.

I'm going fucking crazy btw. My mom is attempting to straighten everything in my room. And I like them crooked and tilted. It gives character, sue me.


Omg. Sass just IM'd me. God. It's been a million fucking ages, where did the time go.


YAY. I got story inspiration.


Because uniqueness is overrated anyway.