I am this close to giving up entirely.

Because schoolwork is just that much more important. And I will quash the silly writer romantic who says that idle daydreaming is worth more than oxidation and reduction reactions anyday, and maybe just kill her off so that the ending of the series doesn't conclude with a loser bumming around ITE.









[this open space represents what I'm too afraid to say.]








And I felt so bad when your mom
Caught us eating ice cream in your
Room at three in the morning.

I am far too much of a teenage girl. And I hate it.

hey batter batter hey batter batter swing. I wonder if it's the zefron pens that made me do that, or the lurkery.

I think I spent like a total of only half an hour online today. I swear to god i attempted chemistry but just kind of gave up. Plus there were *far* more pressing issues to attend. Which manage to take up over an hour and a half of my time rather enjoyably I must add.

Tomorrow is the first day of srs bsns school. I'm not going to fall the fuck asleep. I'm not. I have cereal to perk me up ok :@

GAMEFACE.

Why is neither bbc nor bbg replying. Those bitches.

I've got so much to do and only so many hours in a day.

Got to decide, got to decide.

On more than one issue. Sounds to me like I don't know what I want either.

... I wonder if in five years I'll even be able to decipher these.

Holla.

i admit I'm slightly terrified to blog now.

YEAH THIS GOES OUT TO YOU LURKER. Deny your stalker skills by all means.

i have only completed two history essays. I'm so rusty. Not that i was ever proficient at it but wtebs. Fuck fuck fuck school. Fuck procrastination. IDC I'M GOING TO GET MY HOMEWORK DONE OK THEN I WILL NOT BE SHUNNED :@ ... Right after this post. Ya.

Then you say
Go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds.

Learning to play this song rn. il my piano. I can now play Love Me Tender, When I Fall In Love, Moon River and Manhattan. Not counting previous achievements like Vienna.

idgaf about the policy of appeasement :@

Do I or don't I get chemistry tuition. Decide bitch decide.

Yeah okay even though school has started I'm still kind of happy. The kind of happy only people can bring~


If zits were mines then my face is a minefield.

I don't really have anything to blog about. 4 chemistry papers good god.

What the fuck I don't know whether I want you to read my mind so fucking accurately that it scares me half to fucking death.

HOW DO YOU KNOW THIS? HOW CAN YOU FUCKING TELL?

YEAH I DON'T KNOW WHY I DO BUT IT IS SO DISTURBING THAT YOU EVEN KNOW THAT. ... HOW CAN YOU GRASP THAT FROM SOMETHING TOTALLY UN-FUCKING-RELATED.


School is really fucking imminent.

I have so many questions and fuck-yous and doomsday messages for the world.


I'm missing this, this being a giant both-arms-flung-out in your direction kind of thing.

best new year's ever.

something that felt a little like magic.

surreal as hell now.