for the first time it feels like you are all older than me.

how can you work towards a goal when you don't even know what you want? I know what I want and I know that working will get me there, but how does the work make me grow as a person? What kind of life is the restriction of daily discipline, eating right and exercise? Yeah it feels good. But it's too peaceful and I don't feel alive anymore.

Doing math every day has side effects. Remember this, kids!

This year I am supposed to show everybody what I am capable of. Come on, self. You have two months.