Because I am totally fine with being alone for another few years. I should not be wasting time like this and it would not be productive. I am absolutely right anyway. Look what happened last time.

UGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH FFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

ok done with feeling stupid.

How is it that I can write about a culture that feels more like home to me than this place ever would. I am relatively sure the inside of my own head is the entire world.

I need to go out and see myself.